9/30/2005
noone but me from URL @ 7:27 PM
GOSH.
im feeling FREAKING stifled.
in the morning i thot it was cos of my pe tee.
but then it even lasted till i got home and showered.
then i realised its from the inside.
[physically] i need to jog more- once a wk doesnt seem to be good enough.
[mentally] i need to scream. cry. yell. laugh. whatever.
you know.
its suffocating.
9/29/2005
blogS
noone but me from URL @ 7:31 PM
a blog is where people state their feelings.
feelings are opinionated.
its too bad if u cant accept my feelings.
but u know, if u cant accept it, then ure prolly not meant to be here.
so SHOO off.
hahaa. my blog is gna have a lot of ahems.
1) ive deduced that *ahem is not gay after all. he's a nice man :)
2) *ahem has finally acknowldeged my greeting after say a year or so..
this was when i went to her and bowed in front of her. hahaa. geddit?
3) its shocking that *ahem got 8A1s, and 3As 1B... whats he doing teaching **STHG***
you know the first two are both nice people[ and im not being sarcastic] and the rude comments about them should SERIOUSLY stop.
[oh but u wont know who they are anw.]
anyways,
ive lost FIF T E E N marks for my tl.
so CELEBRATE yeaa.
my maths is SERIOUSLY screwed. cos im not practicing.
and yet im here.
you know.
this entry shows my presence of mind.
slurred and incoherent.
im not happy with it.
:(
9/24/2005
PISSED
noone but me from URL @ 4:24 PM
i am p i s s e D.
i attempted yr 2004 maths section a.
i got
14
F O U R T E E N
upon 50
F I F T Y
14/50..
thats like 28%.
i can just shoot myself and die.
or i'll kill myself when im killing suria
SHEESH.
but im not giving up yet. this wed, after mt paper, im gonna come home and ROT through thurs doing maths
MATHS
MATHS
MATHS
[yes im gna pon skul]
maths
my worst enemy or my bestest friend?
we'll see.
9/21/2005
loaded
noone but me from URL @ 11:11 PM
"its not the load that breaks you down, but the way you carry it."
[prolly the only thg i appreciated from the DAMN TALK]
hmms.
i like that line.
you know, it all depends on your strength.
i have faith too.
im lucky
=)
9/20/2005
sgdf
noone but me from URL @ 10:29 PM
hello.
im having a bad bad sensation.
for the third time this week.
my new goal- im gna be independent.
i cant rely on anything but god and faith.
im happy now. and its keeping me going.
but i need to keep going even when im not happy.
so. i need to be prepared.
im happy now.
or maybe i think i am
but im sensing that im gonna break,
big time.
but you know, i wont break completely.
i wont allow it.
my superglue- my faith- is gonna hold me together
its all i have.
its all i ever want.
its all im asking for.
i think love is a big word. its creation, i think is the major cause of its destruction.
9/17/2005
hdsg
noone but me from URL @ 10:34 PM
17092005
orienteering competition 2005
cedar ncc, bravo 05
2nd, girls unit.
WOOHOOO!!!
like really WOOHOOOO!!!!
--i became good friends with the bugs.
--me: SURIA!! SURIA!!! THERE THERE THERE[when they came]
ics: ohohOH! grab the bags. lets go
me:* grab the bags and run.
[when reached them]
me: omg, you all are SO PRO.. WOOHOO!!
nurin:* vomits.
--a sir in the van asked them to stop and pose for a picture in the middle of the competion. manns. mad larr he. but nurin just dismissed him with a *go-awayy flick of the hand.]
--nurin: i need to pee. suria: YOU WANT TO PEE OR CEDAR TO WIN??!!! nurin: cedar to win!
then they charged..
the rest is better heard first hand.
today was really fate and faith for us
each time our *third postion was threatened by other schools,
we prayed, prayed prayed prayed
[ faith we had ]
we missed by ard two mins, not getting the bonus
[ fate we accepted ]
and again, we prayed prayed prayed.
neither faith nor fate let me us down.
faith- we got SECOND.
fate- dont tell me that by coincidence bukit batok sec[ supposed to be first] got disqualified.
that is SO not coincidence
that was SO fated.
i love god.
i love bravo.
i love *them.
thank you god.
thank you nish,suria,jes,nurin.
thank you bravo
thank you specialists 05
thank you ics 05.
9/16/2005
hello
noone but me from URL @ 7:08 PM
my mom is point blank refusing to give me the money to buy my social studies book.
i NEED it.
ss chapter two- i think its VERY important.
she doesnt wna gimme the money.
she claims she bought me the book alrd.
like, ya RIGHT.. come on lar, it was my dad who bought my school stuffs.
rahhs.
i gotta save money ASAP for that
and to alter my new skirt.[ tht isnt hipster]
[ and i don purposely wear hipster, i lost weight.
really.]
and.. nth else yet.
oh, my new specs.
but i really REALLY need the book.
:(
oh, and i've been a happy person.
really!
fate and faith. i shall blog more abt it. another day
tml. orienteering. im gna fel pressurised just sitting there waiting for thm to come back.
i'll pray. i'll have faith.
i wont hope.
im a changed person-
happy from the inside.
9/11/2005
rahss
noone but me from URL @ 5:13 PM
you wont see me here anymore and if you do see me here for more than 20 mins, i give you the right to punch my face. deal? [execpt weekends, and special occasions.. like birthdays [x))] and major hot earthquakes.. ] *shh bravo secret.
9/08/2005
hmmms =)
noone but me from URL @ 7:37 PM
i have decided to be a happy person.
i no longer believe in coincidences but in fate.
i no longer believe in hope but in faith.
i'll have faith that my fate will bring me to where i want to go.
even if it brings me to places where i never wanted to.
if i fall, i'll know that i'm meant to fall
cos then when i stand up, i know i'll be a stronger person.
i don't believe that fate is in my hands, but in God's.
it was he who created this life for us, he who has the power to control it.
hope has certain loopholes in which i cannot place my trust in.
faith is the one im going for.
esp when "hope lacks a certain concretism".
coincidence is too weak a word for me to believe in.
fate is a big word; with much room for me to trust.
i'll put history back where it belongs.
i'll no longer hold grudges, but having forgiven them, i'll forget.
give people a new start- for me too, a fresh start.
i'll seek out the good in people and use it to conquer their weaknesses.
i'll bring smiles, take away as much sadness away as possible.
i won't be idle with despair,
and worry is a useless thing because it'll get you nowhere.
im a new person.
and i'll stick to my rules.
you stick to yours.
- again. actions speak louder than words.
i'll stand by my words. im not saying i'll never be sad. sadness is an inevitable part of life. like it or not it'll be there. but emotions are ours. we should take control. i won't let sadness ruin me.
9/06/2005
noone but me from URL @ 5:04 PM
Hands - Jewel
If I could tell the world just one thing
it would be that we're all o.k.
And not to worry
cause worry is wasteful
And unless in times like these
I won't be made useless
I wont be idled with dispair
I will gather myself around my faith
for light does the darkness most fear
My hands are small, I know,
but they're not yours they are my own
but they're not yours they are my own
and I am never broken
Poverty stole your golden shoes
but it didn't steel your laughter
And heartache came to visit me
but i knew it wasnt ever after
We'll fight, not out of spite
for someone must stand up for what's right
cause where there's a man who has no voice
there our's shall go singing
My hands are small, i know,
but they're not yours they are my own
but they're not yours they are my own
and I am never broken
In the end only kindness matters
In the end only kindness matters
I will get down on my knees and I will pray
I will get down on my knees and I will pray
I will get down on my knees and I will pray
My hands are small, I know,
but they're not yours they are my own
but they're not yours they are my own
and I am never broken
My hands are small, i know,
but they're not yours they are my own
but they're not yours they are my own
and I am never broken
We are never broken
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's mind
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's heart
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's eyes
God's hands
God's hands
"if the africans can do it, why can't we?"-swl
i like.
rahh
noone but me from URL @ 4:26 PM
ONE.
why do hamsters like to run away?
it was chewing the cover, i din wants it's teeth to chip
so i gave it my finger to nibble on.
no. BITE on.
how nice can i get, and how ungrateful can it get?
rahh. but i still love its lil FAT ass.
--the name is nomore appropriate.
TWO.
i dont get the whole congruence and similarity thg.
i think my common test can get full marks except for that and the symmetry.
i need to conquer it.
im still aiming for an A for maths.
-- can help me tml?
i've gotten over it. it was just a hypothesis. maybe its wrong. it could be true though. cos u'll never know. my mask was put on and taken off alrd. my smiles are true.[most] yu know, but sometimes u just wonder,why you. and tts a selfish quen. but, i think its btr me than many others. i am strong. " when the going gets tough, the tough get going. tough times don't stay, tough people do".[ thank you staff :)].
like she said too, if the africans can, why cant i?so i can. so i will. so i must.
each time you fall, you've experienced the pain. you'll stand up a stronger person. im standing up yoooo. anw, tt day i was pmsing like a selfish person indulging in self pity. but its okay right- i mean noone can stand forever without collapsing.
anw, thank you for your advice& care. i'll heed.
and the sun hunting still up ehh.
mime too.
=)
9/03/2005
noone but me from URL @ 3:38 PM
Never knwoing what love could be you'll see i dont want love to destroy me- like it has done my family
but will i ever get what i want?
oh, i'll wait for the sun.
family.
noone but me from URL @ 3:22 PM
"In our family portrait we look pretty happy Lets play pretend and act like it comes naturally I don’t wanna have to split the holidays I don’t want two addresses I don’t want a stepbrother anyways And I don’t want my mom to have to change her last name." -pink. family portrait.nice.
**im moving. my dad to Pasir Ris, my mom to ??
im following my mom. no, im not angry. no im not sad.
**i don want a step dad, nor a step brother
i want my dad. i want my bro.
yes i am angry. no im not sad.
**im not gonna act like everthing's alright
cos nothing ever is.
there's no point shedding tears, cos it'll get me nowhere.
i'd rather harden my heart, make it void of emotions.
so u see, i wont be hurt.
i wont be sad. i refuse to cry.
Never knowing what love could be,
you’ll see
I don’t want love to destroy me-
like it has done my family.
9/02/2005
hee
noone but me from URL @ 9:44 PM
i like my song. i can play it on the guitar
=))
hahaa.
yu shd noe!
highlight of the day[ x2]
no1--
gc blew a whistle LOUDLY in the mid of Mr lam's after school lesson.
she needed to go home.
HAHAHAA.
i guess mr lam took the hint. he decided to continue on term4 wk1
HOHOOOO!
no2--
then walked ard skul a bit, ate some mint leaves..
then stopped at 2m, sat on the floor and talked.
kath,pat,mo,ya,haz and me.
i dunnow why, they nvr fail to make me happy
=))
i like..
so then went home, prepared no3. polished boots.
not super shiny, but, im no pro.
tho i believe im getting btr.
2.75 hrs of boots, 1hr of ironing.
or 1.5? i dunnow.
oh, there goes my maths, sci and geog.
9/01/2005
right
noone but me from URL @ 11:35 PM
thats super.
just chuck EVERYTHING to ME and marly
ME ME ME.SHE SHE SHE.
why do we even bother
we shd just not do it also.
just not care.
let us all fail history.
but no i cant
responsibility.
fifth core value.
its not a threat to me
i guess, its IN me.
and tml im suppose to present the damn ppt with the damn ppl
who did NOTHING and claim credit.
btw, i don promise credit.
my reliability sbq was the one tt prevented me frm full marks twice.
i never cld get its concept.
if ms chia scolds
i am so not sorry
for anyone but me and marly for our efforts.
hohHO
noone but me from URL @ 5:47 PM
HOHOHOOOO
i am happy
hahaaa.
HAHAHAAA.
who makes me happy when the sky is grey..
oops.
random arhh.
hohoooo.
im gna research abt how bruises are formed
[ i gotta start taking an interest]
then revise my geog
then do maths till 7
then watch tv till 730
do maths till 10
watch tv
1030 to whatever time- prepare no3.
wooohooO!
or maybe, i shall leave my no3 to fri.. and do more maths
maths rawx
as much as mr tan.
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